The first 28 years of my life came with easily definable goals. Most of them were school related.
I started school when I was 3. From there, I was continuously in school until I graduated college. I graduated in December of 2009 so I had a whole 9 months off before I started law school in August of 2010. I graduated law school in May of 2013, but then I transitioned to studying for the bar exam. I took the bar exam in August 2013. From then until March 27, 2015, my main goal was to pay off my student loans. I had 23 years of education and I was looking forward to doing something else. I felt that so long as I had these loans, I was defined by my education.
Today, my life is free from formal schooling. I’m not in school, just out of school or paying for school.
This is a time of transition.
I’ve done a lot of thinking over the last 9 months. I keep reading, absorbing and applying what I can to my life.
The unfortunate truth is that I don’t know what I want right now.
I’ve found a few things that feel good, but nothing has captured my attention, work ethic or drive like a traditional learning environment. I’m really good at school, and nothing has stepped in to fill that void.
With a void to fill, I’ve been trying several things. I’ve thrown a lot of things at the wall to see what sticks. Nothing has stuck, but a few things have been sticky. Warm gummy bears, so to speak. Here are a few things I’ve been dabbling in.
Assessing stuff with purpose and keeping what’s important.
aka Minimalism, Intentional stuff keeping or using the Kon Mari method
I have an unhealthy relationship with stuff. My grandpa was a real Hoarder. My mom, traumatized by his behavior, would prefer to own nothing. Living with both of them growing up, my relationship with stuff is not a good one. For an extra bonus of fun, I hate throwing stuff away.
Those factors came together to impact my current collection of stuff. I don’t have a lot, but what I do have, I either have a strong emotional attachment to or I can’t get myself to throw it away. I’ve got a lot of work to do in this area. Thankfully, I plan to move this year so it’s a perfect opportunity to evaluate my stuff.
(Every time I write or say the word Stuff, I think of this clip. )
Having my financial poop in a group has inspired me to look toward my financial future. If Hubs and I keep up this saving pace, FIRE is on the table. No, the table isn’t on FIRE, but (F)inancial (I)ndependence (R)etire (E)arly.
I’ve been playing around with my saving and investment strategies. Things look good. Perhaps 10 years good. However, I don’t want to sit around for 10 years to hold my breath. I want to optimize for FIRE and effectively forget about it for the next 9 years.
Crafts of all kinds: Sewing, knitting, coloring! Oh My!
I taught myself to sew using a sewing machine! I made an adorable rice heating pad to keep warm at work. I knit my sister a pair of mittens and I spent some quality time coloring with my Momma. I’ve enjoyed all my crafty time, but it hasn’t sparked me like it normally does.
(Yes, I’ve learned that colored pencils are far superior to crayons.)
Perhaps I’m putting too much pressure on myself. There is no reason I can’t simply be me right now. Whatever it is, I hope this ho hum phase passes soon.
Have you ever found yourself stuck in a rut? What got you out of it? Any words of advice?